Jitters

Well, I guess I'm not as ready as I thought I was.  Today at work, my friends were hugging me and telling me they would be thinking of me and I was reassuring them that everything would be fine.  I'm having my hysterectomy on Tuesday and not returning to work until January.  The whole time my stomach was churning.  I guess I'm more nervous about this than I thought.

I came to realize something the other day that really motivated me to move ahead.  Since I was adopted, my family medical history has been pretty limited.  I had always been told growing up that the women in my family had died from ovarian cancer.  So, I always knew that at some point I would get a hysterectomy.  But, I still had doubts in the back of my mind about the mastectomies.  I was wondering if it was really going to make that much difference.  Well, I looked at my test results the other day and noticed that I have BRCA1 and not BRCA2.  BRCA1 has a higher risk for breast cancer, while BRCA2 has a higher risk for ovarian cancer.  It made sense to me.  I knew that my mother had passed away from a tumor in her neck, but I had always wondered how ovarian cancer got way up there.  She had had a hysterectomy for prevention as well.  I'm thinking it must have actually been breast cancer.  So, that just solidified the decision for the mastectomies.  That's for sure.  I called and made my appointment today.

Thank you all SO MUCH for the prayers and encouragement.  I won't be offended if you get sick of hearing me talk about all this and don't always read my blog.  That's fine.  I understand. :)